Next month I’m turning 40 and, frankly, I couldn’t be more thrilled.
Of course I have my “OMG I’m turning 40!” moments, but when I stop to think about it, I am happy. Not always content, but happy, yes.
For the past several years and today, still, I work (and sometimes play!) hard to create a life I want to live.
I create relationships. I create spaces – physical and metaphorical. I create work and projects. I create health and curiosity, joy and reflection.
Sometimes I create deliberately through action, sometimes I create by letting things unfold.
Always, I create with the help of co-creators like intuition, other people, and my Higher Power.
Some aspects of my life still call for movement and tweaking; I suspect some always will (exercise routine – ’nuff said). It’s part of continued learning and growth. But, after giving it some thought the other day, I realized that I did play a large role in setting up key parts of my life that make me very happy:
I created a home that nurtures and supports the rest of my life’s activities. I did this multiple times over the years.
I created friendships, new connections, and half of a marriage, the latter after contemplating the possibility of never saying yes to one again.
I quit my job to pursue more meaningful work, was offered a year’s leave in return, and am back at the office three days a week, allowing me both time and money to continue working on the foundation I built during my time away.
I created art and creative community by putting a plea out to the Universe, and saying yes to opportunity when it presented itself.
I asked, I said yes, and I received.
It’s been, and still is, a process of figuring out what kind of life I want to create and experimenting with different ways of bringing it into being.
Ultimately, it’s a journey in creating alignment of external circumstances with internal values.
So the big 4-0? Bring it, I say. I am ready to continue what I started.
And Universe, if you’re listening, maybe this is the decade I find the exercise routine I’ve been waiting for all my life?
I remain humbly open to your direction in this matter.