change happens and to everything there is a season

Changes by Gwyn Michael

Autumn on the east coast. There is change in the air, on the ground, all around. Personally I love this time of year. I love the first days of wearing a sweater, and the colors, and the crisp smell in the air. I love apples and pumpkin lattes, and hot cider. I love the New Year vibe minus the alcohol and resolutions, but I am not here to extol the virtues of autumn, really.

Last week I talked about brain tigers, aka fear of uncertainty, and the crazy things our brains create around it.

There is a flip side to uncertainty, though. With uncertainty comes possibility.

I have been angsting a lot this past week as my responsibilities are suddenly tenfold. Committee meetings, essays to write, print orders to fill, and vendors to organize. Outside there is no denying the change in season. The house plants must come in, and rooms need to be rearranged to make room. A little more each year. On it goes, and I get tense, but then I stop, take a step back, breathe, and take stock of it all. I created this life and I love it.

It has been a difficult 18 months since I totally quit working at a “job.” Most of the time I did not know what I was doing, or what would work. All I knew was I had some prints that seemed popular, and I was determined to find a way to earn a living through art. I knew that the internet was a way.

I was a latecomer to social media and blogs. I had no clue that because of a book I came upon accidentally in May of 2009, that I would join Facebook and twitter just to get to know its author, Patti Digh. I didn’t know this would lead to my reading blogs and making friends and building relationships around the world.

I had no idea that I would stumble upon Scoutie Girl shortly after Tara took it over, and that because she is a fellow Pennsylvanian I would decide to follow her. I didn’t know that Tara, a woman more than 20 years my junior, would become a mentor to me. I didn’t know any of this and I was scared plenty of the time. However, it was here at Scoutie Girl and blogs like it that I learned how it all works, and slowly, awkwardly made my way. I didn’t know that I would end up writing here and love it.

I didn’t know that it would lead to my finally embracing my own blog, writing three times a week, and loving it. I didn’t know that I had ideas, and stories to tell that would actually matter to people.

Like I said, it was a difficult 18 months and it is far from smooth sailing even now, but I feel I have crossed a threshold, and I know I will continue to grow and succeed from here.

I could have quit when I put up my first awful store and sold nothing, but I tried again. I could have quit when all my new camera equipment was stolen last year, but I decided I could make do. I wanted to quit earlier this year when there were crazy things happening with the weather, in the world, and I felt helpless to do anything about it, but I persevered.

Not knowing is indeed scary, but possibility is alive in those times, and change will happen whether or not we take a chance.

Now it is autumn and nature is getting ready for winter’s rest, but me, I’m just getting to the spring of my work here. The growth will be abundant, and the season long.

18 thoughts on “change happens and to everything there is a season

  1. I love the positive note ending this post. You are my exclamation point this Monday, Gwyn. Thanks and happy fall!

    P.S. I adore pumpkin lattes and am totally making pumpkin pancakes for dinner tonight!

  2. My whole life has changed in the last two months. My son joined the army and got married. I lost my job and my home so I decided to leave and move to a new state. I lived in cheap motels for those two months and was hours away from living in my car. I am now living in a beautiful little house seconds away from the beach. I am trying hard to make my jewelry business successful, it is picking up but nowhere near where I need it to be. I am currently redoing my product lines and pictures in order to try to make it so I can survive. Change can be terrifying but it can also be awesome. I am happier now than I have been my entire life.

    1. Wow Lori that sounds terrifying and exciting. I am oddly envious of the freedom. I am not unhappy where I live, but we are so very tied to this place, and I dream of relocating one day.

      I wish you all the best in starting over and staying HAPPY!!!

  3. This totally touched me today Gwyn and speaks to where I am in my life.

    I just turned 50 this summer and we too just lost our house and have 21 days to move. Two kids still at home so that complicates it – I could just drive off in an RV and live as a vagabond for a year or two at this point in my life if not for that! LOL. If it had happened two or three years ago when we were home schooling we could have done that, but the girls are settled in school now with sports and music and friends and that wouldn’t be high on their ’50 things to do before I die’ list right now!

    I’m re-entering the work force after self-employment and part-time employment for the past 15 years while raising my family and I have an interview on Thurdsday – my palms are sweating anticipating it!

    Through all the insanity of this economy punching us in the gut (husband a builder) my SendOutCards business has been the sanity-saver for me. As I focus on blessing and encouraging others through greeting cards with photos and inspirational quotes, my own challenges diminish and I can stop and be thankful for what I DO have and for what I HAVE accomplished. I love your comment that the flip side of uncertainty is possibility!

    Pupkin pancakes for dinner sounds like just the ticket on a crispy cool autumn day in N. Cal. – I think I’ll dig out my recipe and plan on that!

    1. Thanks Bonnie! I can’t imagine being in this position with kids still at home. I don’t have kids and it has been enough of a struggle.

      My husband also works in a construction related field and I just keep my fingers crossed that his job holds.

      I have contemplated the worst case and even if we lost out home and had to down size, start over, I know that we would be fine.

      Best to you with the new job whatever it is!

  4. Awesomely wonderful post Gwyn… love the journey it goes on with you (and us), and of course the ultimate destination, with your positive vibe, and a reminder about all the possibility that is out there… thank you

  5. Great article, and very true, I think. These are tough and scary economic times to be launching a new business, but the “Now” is all we have, it might be a rough economy for many years to come, and our lives (should I say current lives? ;)) are preciously short, why give up your dream because your life happens to span a period of time when it “shouldn’t” work, or it feels unsafe? Really, I don’t think we are ever truly unsafe if we’re in tune with our intuition and have the right intentions. Of course proper planning and a killer product doesn’t hurt! 😉

    I’m on the cusp of this sort of change myself right now. Health issues are forcing me to re-think the day job that I believe caused them in the first place, which never made me happy, anyway. Giving up a steady paycheck in today’s economy is scary, but I have the luxury of cutting down gradually while I work in more hours for the creative business and test the waters without cutting the cord entirely, and I’ve already started.

    Reaching my mid 40s has been the beginning of the awakening I always heard it could be, and I expect it to continue. Thru my 20s and 30s I had lots of excuses that later, later, I would get on to my “real life.” Well, my real life was already happening, and I missed a lot of it because I was focused on what it wasn’t, so it’s time to make it what it CAN be.

  6. Autumn is stirring up some changes for me, too. I’ve been dreaming about powerful transformational symbols in the last week as the weather’s gotten cooler. My biz and I are in a state of wariness after some emotional fallout following my vacation; we’re not quite sure where we stand, but both of us know things need to change somehow. I’m longing deeply and with everything I’ve got to be ready for and to get enough clients that I can focus just on this biz, to quit the day job, to dedicate myself to what I love full-time. The transition is full of learning, and I’m not sure I have the patience to wait through the long winter that’s ahead.

    1. Thanks Ellie! Change is everywhere eh? The long winter scares me as it is generally a down time for me. I don’t want to allow myself to lose momentum at what feels a critical crux in transformation. Let’s just keep writing and talking.

  7. Beautiful artwork, it sets the mood for your words. Love this statement, “I’m just getting to the spring of my work.” It’s a powerful reminder to those of us at or around the 50’s mark that a ‘new spring’ can arrive at any time.

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